I am lost. I used to think that I was lost but I've never felt so lost up until today. I've been thinking for the past few months about how I have no idea what to do next in my life or where to go. I can't help but compare myself to others. At 27, some of my friends are married, have kids, own properties, and are at least are in a long-term committed relationships. And here I am, almost 30, and have no clue as to what I should do.
I sit on my bed in my rented room in a basement in a small town no one has heard of, with puffy eyes tired from crying, I created this blog because what the f^^k do you do after finding out you got laid off effective immediately.
What the hell do I do now? I know there are endless of options. I could go back to school. I could apply to the hundreds of jobs online. I could move to a new country. But how do I go back to school when I still have thousands in student loans to pay? I've applied to hundreds of jobs even when I was employed but interviews are just not that easy to come by. And how do I move to a different country if my savings account can only afford a flight, one month's rent, and probably enough food for two weeks?
I can't sleep. I can feel an anxiety attack coming and I wish someone can just tell me what to do. But life doesn't work that way.
I also wish PH would call me and ask how I'm doing so I could at least vent to him. But I don't even know what we are doing.
I am clueless about everything. I am clueless and I am lost. Someone save me?
I sit on my bed in my rented room in a basement in a small town no one has heard of, with puffy eyes tired from crying, I created this blog because what the f^^k do you do after finding out you got laid off effective immediately.
What the hell do I do now? I know there are endless of options. I could go back to school. I could apply to the hundreds of jobs online. I could move to a new country. But how do I go back to school when I still have thousands in student loans to pay? I've applied to hundreds of jobs even when I was employed but interviews are just not that easy to come by. And how do I move to a different country if my savings account can only afford a flight, one month's rent, and probably enough food for two weeks?
I can't sleep. I can feel an anxiety attack coming and I wish someone can just tell me what to do. But life doesn't work that way.
I also wish PH would call me and ask how I'm doing so I could at least vent to him. But I don't even know what we are doing.
I am clueless about everything. I am clueless and I am lost. Someone save me?
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